Today is the first day of my little girl going to school.
It was only half days, but still its the fact that she is growing up and progressing in life. Which obviously is what you want... Doesn't change the fact that I am still a proud crying father.
She just had her 4th birthday too. So she is really growing up.
I just think - like every parent does - back when she was born.
9 weeks early
34 days spent in the NICU
Then when we finally were able to bring her home. We had to on a monitor, because she would, at times, stop breathing. Boy can I tell you that I don't think I have ever moved that fast in my life, the night that thing went off. I don't think my feet even hit the ground.
She was so helpless, and yet at the same time the strongest thing I have ever seen.
Fast forward 4 years, and here we are. She is off to school for the very first time. I'd be lying if I didn't tell you that her mom consold herself with cake, on the couch snuggling one of Annabelles stuffed animals.... Hell I would be doing the same thing. Sadly I am at work.
You want your kids to grow up, right.
I mean when you have kids your whole existence is to help them grow up to be the best version of themselves as possible. To be headstrong, to be confident, to be unique, to help others and be of service.
Let me tell you. When you see them becoming that. You just want to stop it right then and there, and selfishly stop their growth because you want them to want you the rest of your life.
I couldn't be happier and more proud than I am of my little girl, and the young lady she is becoming. I honestly hope that carries the rest of her life.
I know that all I can do is guide her, and show her the choices she can make and what they will turn into. But that ultimately this is her life. It's her life to screw up, or make amazing.
She is only 4 years old right now. But I love her more and more each and every day. and I hope one day she may read this and realize how much her dad loves her, and wants the best for her. That I will always be there for her, and care for her. To be her shoulder to cry on, but also the boot to kick her ass when she needs it.
Today is a big day. For all of us. Every parent knows it. Doesn't matter if you are a first timer or this is the last year for your kid. There is that crazy proud, concerned, happy, sad feeling that goes through us all.