Change the narrative


I had a completely different mindset when I first put the title to this blog.

It's funny how life can change in the blink of an eye.

When I first typed the title out I was going to center this blog around how you can change the direction of your life. That you have the power.

But before I could type out anything else the company that I currently work for had an impromptu meeting. "Oh boy"

I currently type this blog as a man who will lose his job in three months because the company will be closing it's doors on my location.

I am not mad. I am not bitter. I understand why. Companies are created to fill a need, and they need to stay current or viable, otherwise they will have their doors closed as well.

I wish this could of come in a time where I was closer to being set with my coaching business. That I could just say that this was the push I needed to make my decision.

Life never happens the way you want it, when you want it to.

Before you get to that next level in life there are growing pains that you will need to go through.

Apparently there are growing pains I need to go through yet. And I know that I will never escape them. That those pains are necessary for growth in any point of our life.

This sucks not that I've currently lost my job. It's that I am not in control of my future.

Not yet.

I know we are never really in control. But I haven't even gotten myself to the position to be unaffected. To have this serve as a blimp on the radar screen.

I am still a slave to someone else. To someone else's wants, desires, dreams, goals.

I so badly want it to be my time. It hurts.

It hurts to think I am making decisions that pull me away from what I hold dear, and what I treasure.

But maybe that's the point, huh. Maybe this is the wake up I need. Maybe this is a growing pain that helps to strengthen my why, and my resolve. Maybe this is the kick in the ass I need.

I don't know. All I know is that I am a slave to it, but at the same time I am still in control of my future outcome.

I know that this is not the end for me. I know that the final chapter in my life has yet to be written. I know that every year, every week, every day of my life is another day that I can use to my advantage. To be able to use for my benefit.

It hasn't happened for me yet. But that doesn't mean it won't happen.

P.S. sorry for the rambling, thinking out loud here.